One thing you’re excited for
One thing I am excited about is the upcoming new year. I am planning on making 2 major changes in my life: retiring from the military and getting a new career in my field or more in line with my degree.
I finally started taking my decision to leave the military about 4 years ago, a short while after I moved to Atlanta. It didn’t make sense to leave with 16 years under my belt so I though I might as well stick it out. Now that the time is quickly approaching, I am feeling anxious and nervous about it, because my career isn’t exactly where I thought it would be my now (it’s my own fault so I’m not looking to blame anyone) and I really just need to focus on that and the military is just a distraction for me. I am tired of using the military as a crutch not to push harder for what I want. I tend to use the military as my “fall back” career, knowing full and dog on well that I would never volunteer to go on active duty if I ever lost my job. I am too comfortable with the military and I personally feel like if I’m too comfortable, it means that I’m not trying, and if I’m not trying, I’m not growing, and if I’m not growing, I’m not succeeding. This, I have a HUGE problem with.
I have to step out of my comfort zone. I’ve given all I can to the military and I am mentally and physically done (I remember having this same disconnected feeling before I broke up with my ex, its insane). I still remember when I joined how nervous I was and I always wondered if I made the right decision, and why I stayed for so long. Knowing what I know now I would do it again, but I would do so many things differently.
I am excited to end one chapter of my life and start a new one. It doesn’t get any better than that.